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Monday, 09 March 2009

  • I did it with a beat box

    I've been staring at this page for about 20 mins now.

    I just don't know where to start.

    It has been such an emotional and stressful past couple of weeks.

    I also feel like I really need to think about what I want to write about.

    There are some things I really shouldn't say just yet.

    So big news, I am once again single.

    I don't know for how long, but I plan to enjoy it.

    It was just best that it happened now rather than waiting it out.

    Not one of us... one of us.

    Random thought.

    The only thing I'm worried about right is trying to get my shit together and get this semester over with.

    I can't wait for the summer.

    I'm gonna take it nice and chill over the summer.

    Not going to worry about anything.

    You guys should check out my deviantART if you haven't.

    Ummm, what else should I write about.

    Oh, PAX is only 179 days away.

    Yes, I am counting down.

    I have nothing else to look forward to this year.

    No, that's a lie.

    I know things will get better.

    I don't know how or when, but they will.

    Wait, I do have something to look forward to.

    I can't talk about it yet or anytime soon, at least not until it happens.

    Something that may change my life.

    Some people may not be happy about it, but I feel like it will make me happy.

    I hope it does.

    If not, oh well, I still have a long way to go.

    Not worrying about it just yet, just gonna go with the flow.

    I'm done for now since I'm just rambling.

    ~Turo

Monday, 22 December 2008

  • Passion

    So it's my birthday today.

    Thanks for all the birthday wishes from everyone.

    That was the high point of my whole day.

    I hate my birthday.

    It just depresses me so much.

    I'm not even sure why.

    Maybe it's all the drama of the past couple of weeks.

    Finals really sucked.

    I don't even want to talk about that.

    I'm just not happy with my life.

    I keep on getting told that I don't have the passion for graphic design.

    I do have the passion, but it's my second, maybe even third one.

    I feel as this is a good thing.

    So you have passion for graphic design, now what?

    I have a passion for video games.

    It's the only thing that has never let me down.

    It's there when I'm down.

    It's there when I'm up.

    It never lets me down.

    It's always there

    If I could combine two of my passions together, wouldn't that even be better than just one.

    "Zombies? What are you going to do with zombies, you're a graphic designer."

    I was told this once during once while I was telling a class some of my ideas for a project.

    "Once a niche market and considered by some as a curiosity in the mid-1970s, the computer and video game industry took in about USD$9.5 billion in the US in 2007"

    $9.5 billion, that's a lot of fucking money.

    I was lucky enough to spend three amazing days over the summer with 55,000 people who feel the same way I do about video games.

    Being a gamer, it's a way of life.

    For me, my dream job would be to combine the video game world with the graphic design world.

    That's my dream and I'm sticking to it, I don't care what anyone says.

    Tell me I don't have the fucking passion.

    Tell me again.

    Keep fucking telling me.

    You're just fueling the fire.

    I remember a couple of weeks back, a friend posted about how he had a dream and it came true.

    He also wanted to really break into the video game industry, to do something he loves.

    He did.

    When I read that, it got my hopes up so much.

    I must thank him for that, thank you Chris.

    After reading that, I knew I would be ok.

    I'm going to keep pushing for that dream.

    Maybe I shouldn't be down.

    Maybe I should just keep that in the back of my mind.

    One day I will be there, and I'll be able to look back and laugh.

    I was thinking that maybe this wasn't what I want to do anymore.

    That maybe I chose the wrong life.

    Then I remember something.

    This is the life I picked, rather, the life that chose me.

    Telling someone that they don't have the passion for something is a really fucked up thing to do.

    You may not know what's going on with them.

    Maybe they're just having a bad semester.

    I guess I really can't complain.

    At least I have someone that's willing to go to bat for me.

    Someone that has my back.

    I'm thankful for that and will listen to whatever that person has to say.

    With that, I'm done.

    Happy Holidays to you and yours.

    T.U.R.O.

Thursday, 16 October 2008

  • Don't Tell Me It's Over

    It has been a while for reals this time.

    Over two months.

    It's the longest I've gone without writing a blog.

    Why you ask?

    I'm not sure, maybe it's because everything is going great.

    I'm at work and felt like writing something, just to let people know how I'm doing.

    Where should I start?

    School.

    It's going alright.

    I must admit, I'm pretty burnt out.

    I can't myself wanting to work on any assignment right now.

    It sucks, my head is full of ideas, but I don't feel like getting them out.

    I'm in need of another vacation.

    I guess it doesn't help that I'm on campus every single day of the week.

    Oh well, I chose it to be this way.

    Moving on.

    For anyone wondering, yes, Carissa and I are back together.

    It's been so wonderful.

    I'm madly in love with her.

    Just thinking about her makes me smile.

    :) <<<<<<<< see?

    She got to meet my parents a couple of weekends ago.

    The parents approve.

    Work.

    Work is work I guess.

    We had a LAN party last weekend for work and it was awesome.

    What else to talk about?

    Oh, I'm getting a new phone.

    It's a gift from the parents and it should be here tomorrow.

    Also, my car is being worked on and should be ready tomorrow.

    This means I might be going home for Thanksgiving this year.

    Will I visit any of my friends that are back home?

    Not sure.

    That's actually why I wanted to write tonight.

    This is something I've been thinking about for a while now.

    I've been told that there's friends of mine that are back home that have been talking shit about me.

    Talking about how I'm never gonna make it as a graphic designer.

    It's bullshit.

    These are people that are suppose to be my friends.

    What do they know?

    They have no idea how hard I'm busting my ass over here.

    But no, I won't complain about that.

    I love what I do.

    I'm not the one back in Dodge Fucking City.

    I'm out in Denver living my life.

    I have an amazing life out there and wouldn't trade it for anything.

    I have a great apartment.

    I go to an amazing school.

    I have the greatest parents in the world that are willing to help with everything and anything.

    I have the most amazing friends here, these are the friends I will stay in contact with many years from now.

    I have the greatest most amazing and wonderful and sweetest girlfriend in the world.

    I lucked out with her.

    I can almost say my life is perfect here.

    The people back home are just jealous.

    I don't care how fucked up that sounds but it's true.

    Be jealous, keep on hating, that's what feeds me to keep on going.

    Our 10 year high school reunion will be here sooner than we think.

    We'll see who's who then.

    For now, I'll just keep doing what I do.

    Enjoying every part of my life with a big fucking smile on my face.

    I leave you all with some lyrics from Gym Class Heroes

    All press is good press kids So if you wanna see us gone
    Then I suggest you keep our name out of your headlines
    Unless you wanna mess that is
    Your best bet is to set your dirty laundry separate from the clean before your deadline
    Admit it you wanted to be an artist
    But your parents and that tiny voice inside you said it wasn’t worth the hardships
    What better way to compensate then to hate on everything you wish you were
    But didn’t have the balls to harness
    Pop culture’s my trip, somehow you think your gonna stop us
    Cuz you flirted with a chick who’s got my tongue in her esophagus
    Bitches post anonymous
    We shat on 07, 08 is gonna be great imagine 2011
    Give me one good reason I shouldn’t dead this debate
    Don’t worry I’ll wait....
    That’s the f**k I thought
    Cat got your tongue
    Next time get your facts right
    Google me and act right


    (Chorus)
    How can I be
    Be without your hate
    It gives me peace of mind
    So please don’t tell me its over
    Don’t tell me its over
    Its your hate that keeps me believing
    That we’re the greatest of all time
    So please don’t tell me its over
    Don’t tell me its over
    Don’t tell me its over
    Because I can’t bare to see you go
    See you go
    Don’t tell me its over
    Because I can’t bare to see you go
    See you go

    (Travis)
    Hey Mr. Internet
    To whom it may piss off, yea you and you
    Here’s a list of shit you didn’t know but now you do
    Exploit my bad habits
    Tell them I do drugs
    Tell them Travi smokes more crack than Tyrone Biggums does
    Tell them I can’t rap
    Tell them I dumb it down
    Tell them not to buy tickets whenever my band's in town
    Tell them I sold out, say I did it for the fame
    And how I buy magazines for the sake of seeing my name
    Tell them I how frequent parties trying to get that page 6
    Tell them so and so said so and so saw pictures of my dick
    Make me out to be an asshole that don’t deserve his fans
    Make me more insecure than I already am
    Kick dirt on my accomplishments if you're ever bored
    Just document it well and don’t forget to hit record
    One hit wonder my ass, what are you talking about
    Let them keep blogging trash im gonna take the garbage out

    (Chorus) w/ Lil Wayne ad-libs
    How can I be
    Be without your hate
    It gives me peace of mind
    So please don’t tell me its over
    Don’t tell me its over
    Its your hate that keeps me believing
    That we’re the greatest of all time
    So please don’t tell me its over
    Don’t tell me its over
    Don’t tell me its over
    Because I can’t bare to see you go
    See you go
    Don’t tell me its over
    Because I cant bare to see you go
    See you go

    ~T.U.R.O.

Tuesday, 02 September 2008

  • PAX '08 Day Three

    So this is the last part of my three part blog about PAX. Here we go.

    So the final day of PAX was another amazing day. The day started out, well kept going since I didn't go to bed that night. I took a shower and decided to go down to the expo early since the guys from the gamercast network were having a panel at ten. I figured it would be full so I wanted to get in line early and get a good seat. I went to a cafe on the lower floor of the expo and just sat around waiting for time to pass by. I was there for about 20 mins when the guys (and girls) from the video game show showed up. I went to greet them and apologized for not joining them the night before. They were cool with it since they went to bed early anyway. We sat around the cafe as some of them grabbed breakfast and drinks before the panel. They started to go upstairs and I wasn't allowed up there just yet so I started to go the other direction. Chris stopped me and asked me where was I going, that I was part of the group and therefore should go with them. I was so excited, as I really didn't feel like waiting in line for an hour. We all went upstairs and hung out till the panel started. The panel was great, as they all talked about podcasting in general. That was over within an hour and after that it was picture time once again.




    A couple of the guys were hungry so they asked me to joint them for lunch. We all went to a subway a couple of blocks away. While we where there, they decided it was time to record a podcast. We went back to the expo and found somewhere were it wasn't so loud. They started to record and half way through the show they asked me if I wanted to say something. I was amazed that they wanted me to be on the show. You guys must download this podcast (Video Game Show) and listen to it many times. It should be out Tuesday night and will be up for a week. Once we were done recording, we went back to the expo hall just to check it out one more time before the day was over. We parted ways and I walked around some more to see if I could get anymore free stuff. It was about an hour for me to go so I went back to the hotel room and packed all my things up. I had to leave many posters behind, very sad I know. I went back to the expo hall looking for the Video Game Show gang and my roommates. I couldn't find the guys from the show but I did find all my roommates. I did find Chris. I thanked him for letting me join them during the weekend. I was sad to leave the place but it was time for me to go.

    I walked back to the hotel since that's where a bus that takes you back to the airport stopped. I waited for it and almost missed it because of this old lady who told them she wasn't going. The driver didn't seem me but I managed to wave him down. I got on the bus and took off to the airport.

    I got to the airport with about half an hour before boarding started. As I was waiting, I saw this girl that looked very familiar. The whole time I was thinking it looked like Liz from Freeze Pop. As she got closer, I knew it was her. I stopped her and asked her if I could take a photo with her. Of course she said yeah so here they are:


    They happened to get on the same airplane as I and I got to sit across from them. I didn't bug them as I was sure they were as tired as I was. It was just the greatest way to end the weekend.

    Over all, my experience at PAX was an amazing one. I have decided to go back next year and I can't wait. This trip made the shitty month I had a distant memory which I don't even care to remember. I thank my parents so so so so so so much for giving me the money for the trip. They knew I needed a vacation so bad. With the end of this trip, I'm on a high that will last for a couple of months. Never in my life have I been so tired, hungry, sleepy, excited, and every other mood in my life all at once. It's amazing how video games have brought so many people together. I will never forget this experience and it will go down as one of the best. I took the risk of going to a new place by myself and staying with random strangers. Life is all about taking those risk. This risk will go down as one that I have no regrets of doing, just like the one I took Aug. 16th of 2007.

    Turo




Monday, 01 September 2008

  • PAX '08 Day Two

    Day Two!

    It started out a whole lot better. I got some sleep, the last time I got sleep all weekend I might add. They guys and I decided to go somewhere nice for breakfast since we had a long day ahead of us. We walked around for a bit downtown looking for a place and we founds this really nice place by the bay.


    We had an amazing breakfast there and we were all ready for the rest of the day. We started by going back to the expo hall and just walked around. During the day, we went over to a panel about Harmonics and how they started out. It was ok, the main guy took my sharpie and never gave it back. After that, I went back into the expo hall and went to the 360 booth. There, I was standing there trying to figure out what was going on. I look my right side and there's a guy standing there from Microsoft and he looked really familiar. I went up to him and asked him if he was Chris Paladino. I was right, it was him. Chris started out doing a podcast many years ago (dreamstation.cc) which I'm a big fan of. They moved to a different site called videogameshow.org and started a new podcast. Anyway, here's a pic with him:

    Any of you that have a 360 might see him on the insider Xbox every once in a while. I asked him where the rest of the guys were since I knew they were gonna be there. He called them all up and I got to meet them all! I was so excited, I've been a fan for so many years and it was great to finally put a face to the voices I hear week after week. These guys are so amazing. Oh, before I get really into talking about them, I did take a photo with a gamerchix.

    So, I starting talking to the guys from the podcast and Keith asked me if I had any plans for the rest of the day. I told him I had one thing to go to but other than that, I was free. he asked for my number and said he would call me whenever they would go play games or something. I gave it to him thinking that he was just being nice. I said my goodbyes and started walking around again. It wasn't more than ten mins when he called and asked me if I wanted to go play Magic with them. I told him I was down and I met up with them. We walked over to the other building and found a table.

    We hung out and it was so awesome just sitting there and laughing with them. Then a bunch of other people from the gamecast network showed up and it was picture time.

    We took this photo about 20 times, everyone had cameras and they all wanted photos.

    After this, they were heading over to dinner and asked me if I wanted to join them. I really wanted to, but I didn't. I already planned on going to the Code Monkeys talk and I'm so glad I did. That was so amazing as well. The creators were there and talked about how the show got started. Then they surprised us by showing us the un-aired never before seen pilot episode of Code Monkeys. Being a big fan of the show, this was the greatest thing ever. There was only about 50 people that got to see it and I'm glad to say that I was one of them.

    I got ahold of the roommates and went back to the hotel room and hung out with them for a while. They wanted to go drinking so we all went.

    We went to a nice bar downtown and hung out for a couple of hours. Keith ended up calling me again after dinner to see if I wanted to hang out with them. I really wanted to, but we ended up staying at the bar for a long time. We walked around downtown the rest of the night and played some games at the expo and with that, I end this blog. Day three is soon to come!

    Turo

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